Promises

This week we found out that Riley is going to Florida for 6 months for a training opportunity with the Air Force. Now don't get me wrong. This is NOT an "Oh poor Bri" post. I have friends who are military wives, they have children and their husbands have been gone for almost a year in another country. These women wouldn't want you to feel sorry for them either. It's what they do, they are brave and I admire them. Riley will ONLY be gone for 6 months, he will ONLY be in Florida, and I can talk to him EVERY day. I am blessed.

That being said I am scared. I'm kinda freaking out a little bit, and I know in the long run this will be a good thing, and its a great opportunity for him, and for me. I can dive into school and graduate in December. I can save money, I can get an extra job, I can test my independence, which I am sure at some point I will be thankful for. I am just having a hard time wrapping my head around my rock being gone. I know when you marry a man in the military these things are bound to happen, and people will say "You knew this could happen when you married him" yes I did. It doesn't make it any easier. I just want to say also, you don't marry someone based on convenience, or their profession, you marry someone because you love them. Simple and complicated as that.

This has been and will continue to be a faith tester. I was thinking /praying about all this yesterday and I thought, I always promised Riley I would back him up and support him if this where to happen. Now here I am, and God is saying "Bri, you have to back up your promise." I know their will be times when I am sad and lonely. I love my husband and being apart is hard for any couple. He keeps me sane, and I am not sure how to do that by myself. I have never really had too. By getting married young I was able to go from have my wonderful parents who helped me keep my life in check, to Riley who has done the same. This will be a test of how much I've grown up and what I am capable of.

I am sharing this because I am not too pride to not ask for help. I will need help. I will need lifted up in prayer and Ill need friends and family around as much as possible. It will be hard at times, but I have faith that God will open doors and their will be ways to make this a good thing, for both me and Riley. <3