Sun Rise

     

      For the past six months I have been spending two days a week with an Autistic boy, lets call him Sam. Sam is six years old, he is non verbal, and severely autistic. He loves to rip paper, and jump on his little trampoline. He is pretty amazing. During my time with Sam we follow a curriculum called "Sun Rise" created by a man named Berry Kaufman, his son Raun was autistic, Berry and his wife Samahria just wanted to find a way to communicate with their son. Sun Rise is different from any other autistic curriculum I have been around, it encourages us (the workers, or parents) to allow the child to stimulate (yell, wave hands, jump up and down) in fact we should join them! Let them know "Hey, I am with you, I want to be in your world." Pretty exciting and ground breaking if you ask me. This is just a part of what I do with Sam, but I do spend a lot of time ripping paper, or bouncing on a ball yelling at the top of my lungs.It is pretty liberating really. I have found the more I do this, the more I enter his world, he begins to let me in. He will look at me and smile! There really is no greater feeling.

   I know you might be thinking why would I choose to blog about something like this. I'm not a teacher yet, this is all just volunteer. It is something I am passionate about, something I want to share with the world. It has been something that grounds me, and helps me to be thankful for every child in every circumstance in life. Sometimes we all need to remember to meet kids where they are, and regardless if they are autistic or not, they will meet you. Acceptance is something we can all learn  

This is a 4 minute video is a girl named Laura. Her story is pretty amazing. Hope you guys watch and let me know what you think!

        

     

         

       

The Mom Club

              So as I mentioned in my welcome post I have been trying to become a mom for almost a year now. This journey has been a roller coaster of emotions, but it has also been a growing experience. When you are "trying" to get pregnant you have a lot of time to think and ask yourself "What type of mom do I want to be", "Is the timing right?" "Is the timing ever right?" and so on. You also become overly aware of every baby that surrounds you. Suddenly, like magic, your eyes are open to every pregnant woman in the mall, on the tv and especially people on social media. I find myself, I'll admit, semi obsessed with these people. I want to know where they are in their life, are they my age, do they have a job, how do they make it work. Weird, I know. I start to wonder why these woman where chosen to have the job I would love to have?! What am I doing wrong (nothing, I know...I'm coming to terms with this.)

           I start to compare. I saw on pinterest (another total obsession) a quote that said "Comparison is the thief of joy". Wise words. I have been spending all this time just dying to be in "The Mom Club". I want to learn about making my own baby food, I want to go cloth diaper shopping, I want to be a part of this bond! (Do you hear the pleading in my voice!). Then suddenly I am reminded of this quote "Comparison is the thief of joy" and I can watch it unfold in my life. I am comparing, or as the Bible says "coveting" other peoples children! What is wrong with me?! (that's another post for another time).

           I am learning to not compare, to be blissfully happy in the fact that Riley and I have a really good life! We can go out, we can travel ( that stuff takes money, so it doesn't happen often) but we can! I am trying to find the joy in my life right now in my own club, as hard as it feels sometimes. This is a lesson that needs to be learned now, because someone always has something you would like to have. This is something I am working on and will continue to work on probably for the rest of my life.

Welcome

Me and Riley

                   Welcome guys! So glad you stopped in to see what this little project is all about. So let me tell you. This blog is a way for me to be transparent and real with myself and the world. I am not a writer, by any means. I am an awful speller and not very good at grammar (Thank God my husband has these abilities for my children sake). I just want a place where I can share my journey with you. 

                   I hope I can be funny and real with you. I would love to make you think to yourself "I know that feeling." or "I'm so glad I'm not the only one." I love being able to do that. I love knowing I am not alone. Mostly this blog will consist of me being honest about my holistic journey in all things, from food to medicine. This has become a huge part of my life over the past year and it continues to grow daily. I'll also talk about my life as a wife ( and a military one at that.) I also want to be real about my struggle with trying to have a baby. This is something I have hid for almost a year now, so it feels good to get it off my chest and not worry about judgement or opinion! You will hear about my blessings and my grumblings. You will hear about my love for God, and how Jesus is and always will be my Rock and Salvation. 

                 My welcoming is a little boring but I hope you come back often with your glass of wine ( beer if you prefer) or cup of coffee, and stop and feel the cool breeze (corny I know, but I had to work the title in there somewhere) :)